To make a long story short, even though I once had no intentions to get into any Indonesian university, I ended up getting into a prestigious one and failed big time. I got through it though, transferring myself into an art institute, while still secretly admiring a dream I thought I'll never have. Financially, studying out of this country is impossible. College in Indonesia is expensive enough, let alone studying abroad.
San Francisco. Oh where do I start? I once started admiring this beautiful city because of film scenes I often see. I always had a passion for the image of San Francisco, especially in it's 70's and 80's timeline. The victorian architecture, the steep hills and cable cars, the hippies with flowers in their hair, the parades of liberalism, I can go on and on. Always found this city inspiring in so many ways. And so, I always dreamt of living there. One day.
Because of this obsession and my anger towards my failure of finding motivation to keep on continuing my studies, I kept on applying for scholarships and shit like that in order to make this happen. Yet again and again I never got it. I started this hobby of applying into SF colleges in late 2008. I tried every year. 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011. I could easily get in, who couldn't. But even though I could get in, I won't be able to pay for the extremely expensive tuition. A little amount of time after New Year's 2011, my latest application was for a portfolio based scholarship to get into one of the most prestigious art universities in America, Academy of Art University.
It was hard deciding on which photos I should put into my portfolio. Days went by still confused. Until I met film makers Kel O'Neil & Eline Jongsma who were currently filming project Empire in Jogjakarta. We became close friends and they taught me a lot about affordable and easy film making. I found out later that apparently Eline had studied photography in college, so I asked her a favor to help me decide which photos I should send in. I gave her photos that I thought were my best. It did not impress her AT ALL. How strange. The photos that have made me won competitions and earn recognition in Indonesian magazines wasn't "describing" me enough, she said. Then she browsed through my old works and thought that I should make a photo essay on these black and white photos. She said they were romantic in a way. I would have NEVER picked those photos for a portfolio, in my opinion they're very personal and blurry and stuff. But I followed her advice anyway and made short essays for those grainy photos, sent them in, then waited.
Then who would have guessed.. Months later, I got the scholarship.
I've always thought that San Francisco would be forever a dream. It was crazy how fast this happened. As my good friend, Alanda Kariza said, "Dreams do come true if you pursue them!." (I just noticed that Al has her own Wikipedia page now! Whoa girl, you're getting uber famous!).
So yeah. I'll be moving to San Francisco in two weeks. It's gonna be so fucking ace! Thanks to everyone who always believed in me, especially all you readers that have been so patient reading through my babblings about this wonderful city and my obsession to study there. Can't wait to get there, there'll sure be fun posts to write! Wish me luck!
P.S : Dearest Kel & Eline, if you ever stumble upon this post, a billion hugs and thank yous to you. I look forward to the day when we will meet again.