It's been about 4 days since I'm back in San Francisco. I haven't talked much about leaving because I've been crazy busy preparing myself to actually leave. You know, no matter how many freakin times I say that living here is my dream come true, it's still hard to leave home behind. So after a whole lot of emotional days and nights back home in Indonesia and another excruciating 28 hours on the way, yes, I'm back in San Francisco.
This time, my stay is and will be much tougher than last year. Why? Because this time, I'm in 'survival mode'. I saved for a whole year to be here and I spent every penny, literally, for a one-way ticket and two months' rent. I have no idea how to support myself after July, we'll see whether I starve to death or not. The moment I sat on the plane, I almost broke down thinking what an idiot I am, spending all my money from working really hard, just to be poor in another country! But I guess it always takes a fuckload of balls to get what you want and this is really want I want.
Since the first day here, I've been applying for jobs, from fancy museum internships, writing jobs, baby photography, to retail and barista jobs. I've applied everywhere. And to be frank, I haven't landed any job yet. So, I'm pretty much freaking out. Although, I haven't even been here for a week. A bit too dramatic. And the rest of my time? Hanging out with old friends, walking around the city and enjoying American TV.
But, even though life is tough right now, I'm actually happy. And life must go on, you never know whether you can survive or not if you never try! So here I am, testing my luck. I can't wait to be back in school this fall and hopefully, get out of survival mode and live comfortably.
Take care everyone!
P.S: Help me buy food next month! Purchase my book online at this link :3